libertybelle diaries

January is the month where all sorts of storage containers abound in stores. With Christmas over and the new year, most of us want a fresh start. I didn’t need new containers or some fancy new organizational system when I embarked on decluttering my house a few weeks ago- I needed a new mindset.

Moving around the Army forced me to declutter on a regular basis, but over 30 years in this house and way too much stuff has taken up permanent residence here.

The youngest of my four kids is in her late 30s and two of my grandkids are adults. My closets and garage are cluttered up with stuff . The garage, has always been my family’s home for everyone’s extra stuff.  In 30 years, our garage has never been the home of our car.

Two weeks ago, as I was sorting through a box of other people’s stuff that was still in the garage, I came across some plastic coffee mugs with lids, that judging from the designs on them, I believe they belonged to my two adult sons. As indecision hit and I was debating getting rid of them or should I message my sons and ask if they still want them, a moment of clarity hit me. I was wasting more time on a decision about plastic coffee mugs, which I will never use and both of my sons use much fancier metal coffee mugs now.  My sons have probably never spent a moment thinking about these left behind, plastic coffee mugs. Tossing them felt good.  Another discard was a Karate Kid thermos from a lunch box and a California Raisins lunch box with the original thermos in it. Those went in a box for Goodwill, that actually made it to Goodwill, instead of the usual, sitting around for weeks (or longer).

Before the thought crosses your mind about, oh what if that lunchbox is a collectible, during my organizational idea browsing I came across an explanation of sunk cost fallacy, where we hold on to items even when the items are no longer useful to us and in many cases cause us considerable distress, in the form of clutter that ends up being moved and shuffled about. We assess a value to these items based on the amount of money we spent buying them. Most people greatly overestimate the resale value of items and don’t consider the the time incurred reselling or setting up a yard sale takes. We also never consider the time we spend relocating unused items around our home and even moving them from home to home. Sunk cost means accepting the money was spent and is irretrievable – and the item has no real value if it’s just sitting here taking up space. An item has no value to your life if it’s just creating more clutter in your home.

In 2020, the pandemic and civil unrest prodded me to become more of a prepper than I had always been. I have always had plenty of extra food and my kids would quip about there was enough food in our house to last a year. While that’s an exaggeration, we always had a lot of food. While I still believe it’s good to have food and emergency supplies, I want to rethink the amount and strike a reasonable middle ground between Doomsday prepper level prepared and not prepared at all. Most of the online prepper stuff is fear-based and while there are real and serious potential threats of all sorts from weather events to hostile foreign threats to our critical infrastructure, having too much stuff piled up might impede in a crisis rather than help.

Once I stopped thinking about the value of all this stuff, all the imaginary uses, and worrying about being wasteful and throwing “good stuff” in the trash, it has become easier and easier to make decisions and get rid of things. I don’t want my garage looking like a junk yard anymore.

My neighbor helped me sort some items and she guided me to better decisions. Her husband told her to tell me he’d be happy to take any of my late husband’s guns off my hands. She related this as I had just picked up an old broken BB gun in the garage. These neighbors didn’t know my late husband. My husband owned one handgun and wasn’t into guns. He considered them his work gear and he wasn’t a hunter. He liked doing home repair and fix-it projects and had a lot of saws and tools. One of my sons took the handgun and most of the tools before my husband even passed away, because my husband told him he should take them. However, I do have a lot of old paint cans that I need to dispose of and fortunately, my county has a quarterly drop off for those kind of items coming up in a couple weeks.

Bringing up guns, is a little off the topic of this post, but I told my neighbor who was helping me declutter about a young man in our neighborhood, who has had a lot of problems with the law, coming to my door one day last year. He told me someone tried to break into their house in broad daylight and he asked me if I can protect myself. It was a bizarre question. I asked him what he did when this person supposedly tried to break in and he said he pulled out his gun. I admit, I lied and told him I have a gun and can defend myself and am fine. He persisted and questioned me if I know how to use it and he said you have to train and wanted to know if I go to the range to practice. I told him I was in the Army and do know how to use it. I haven’t handled a firearm since I got out of the Army in 1981, except when I worked at Walmart and handled some sales of firearms. I was in a management position and we were required to hand carry the purchased firearm to the door and then hand it to the customer. I have never liked handling firearms.

With that neighbor, he has had numerous run ins with the law, so while I wasn’t scared of him, since I’ve known him since he was a kid, I was just perplexed at his persistent questions. I do possess an arsenal of water pistols that I use regularly on two very bad cats, who climb on everything and won’t listen.

Getting back on topic, that broken BB gun went in the trash too and open space being reclaimed, inch by inch, feels liberating. So far, I haven’t regretted or missed a single thing. Before claiming victory over my packrat habits, I haven’t gotten to decluttering my craft and sewing room, where I really do find uses for many items that have been here decades and I am not getting rid of my books. Since I was a kid I dreamed of having my own home library. I’ve worked hard to acquire that. I don’t have space for a massive home library, but mine can still grow a little bit and I would feel like a part of me was ripped away without my books.

This is the earliest book I received for Christmas in 1964 when I was 4 years old. My mother wrote my name and the date inside the cover. Several years ago, I stitched the signature back together and retaped the cover back on. A signature is a group of pages stitched together in books. If you look at a book where the pages meet the spine, you will see groups of pages sewn together, which are then attached to the cover – those groupings of pages are called signatures. I wish I had done a better job on the taping, but it replaced the white bandage tape I had used as a kid to tape it back together.

My books are staying.

In recent days stories of drone sightings dominate our American news skyscape. Without fail, many of the pundit and news media class instantly removed their previous ‘expert” hats and have now donned “drone expert hats” without missing a beat.

Being just an ordinary citizen and having no expertise on aircraft or anything pertaining to flying, I can state with 100% certainty that I have no idea what’s the truth with this situation. The same people who trust the Biden administration have taken the position that these drone sightings are all really mistakenly identified and are really just planes and/or nothing to worry about. The same people on the right who distrust everything the Biden administration says and/or believe there’s some evil big government entity out to destroy America are convinced the government is engaged in a cover-up or worse behind something nefarious going on.

I remain neutral and cling to this fact – I don’t have any idea or theories about the drone sightings. I don’t have any drone experts whispering in my ear.

My most embarrassing unidentified sighting of lights at night and jumping to UFO-level alarm happened in 1992. My late husband was stationed in Germany and we lived there for 5 years, returning to the States in the summer of 1992. We were visiting my parents in rural PA.

One night I got up to use the bathroom and through the open window I heard a peculiar buzzing sound, interspersed with zip sounds. I peered out the open window and saw a strange glowing purple light in the middle of the backyard.

I woke up my mother to share my sighting with her and in an exasperated tone, she told me that’s just the “bug zapper” and to go back to bed. I crawled back into bed and laid awake for a long, long time, wondering what on earth a “bug zapper” was. In the morning I asked my husband if he knew what a “bug zapper’ was and he didn’t, which made me feel like less of an idiot.

At breakfast, I asked my parents what exactly is a “bug zapper” and my mother pointed out the kitchen window to this innocuous looking thing, that resembled a large bird feeder or lantern, hanging on the end of the swing set and they explained that you plug it in and the purple light supposedly attracts bugs and those zip sounds were bugs being zapped.

I hadn’t seen any “bug zappers” in Germany, although they might have been selling them there too in 1992. After that experience, I learned a few valuable lessons – don’t jump to conclusions about strange lights at night, don’t assume unexplained things are something ominous or dangerous and just take a deep breath, be patient, and most of all don’t rush to judgment. Eventually, answers will come, I feel certain.

Another more important lesson has taken me a lifetime to learn and I still need to remind myself of this often – place your burdens and cares in God’s hands and trust in his love and care. Answers to many of the things we worry about or get worked up about may not come as quickly as our instant gratification culture has taught us to, not only expect, but demand.

Working on remaining calm and resisting the pull of all these hyped up media and social-media driven dramas can be hard. What you gain if you do start resisting getting sucked into all that drama is more time to focus on things that actually matter in your life and you can develop a sense of inner-peace and strength. I believe this is the power over fear that God makes available to all of us – if we choose to seek it out.

This is the season where three wise men followed the light of a star to guide them on a journey to Bethlehem. It wasn’t the light that propelled them onward, it was faith in God. The least we can do is stop getting worked up and listening to every yahoo online, who proclaims to have all the answers about all these sightings.

It’s okay to say, “I don’t know” and not waste time getting wrapped up in all this hype.

Today is Veterans Day, so we should all take a little bit of time to honor all veterans, who secure our future.

I’m mulling over this election and America’s future and will be getting more posts out soon.