My husband died last Saturday. My own blog is the only place I wanted to post a link to his obituary. I’ll return after taking some time off.
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To everything there is a season, and a time to every purpose under heaven.Ecclesiastes 3:1
Although my blog is mainly my opinions about politics and culture war issues, this post is a personal one. I’ve mentioned in other posts that my husband has been on home hospice care since late January 2020. He couldn’t even sit up in the bed by himself after suffering acute respiratory failure. To me it seems miraculous that he has survived this long. He’s been completely bed bound for over a year.
There was never any hope that he would regain, in any real sense, anything remotely resembling, “quality of life.” He has late stage COPD and he’s had, normal pressure hydrocephalus (NPH) for well over a decade. It’s been years of declines, then he’d work to regain his strength, but never recover to the point he had been before the latest set-back.
He liked to read novels, work in our yard, do home fix-it and home improvement projects. He used to have a wicked sense of humor and there were still occasional glimmers of that over this past year.
During the past decade he went from a cane, to a walker, to a wheelchair, to being bed-bound. The most devastating part wasn’t losing his mobility, it was the dementia caused by the NPH. that increased along the way.
My husband is a fighter. He believes, “The mind controls the body; the body does not control the mind.” When faced with being bed bound and unable to even sit up on his own, he fought to regain his strength, hour after hour, day after day, week after week, until he managed to pull himself up to a sitting position, holding onto the bedrails.
This past year has been a rollercoaster, where there’d be a few small improvements and then the unrealistic hopes, that maybe he’d get better would start popping into my head, even though I knew that wasn’t going to happen. Those hopes would quickly be followed by another decline. There were declines, with several infections, but he kept fighting back to being able to sit up and he’d try to eat and regain his strength.
Everything sounds so clinical with the terms used to explain what’s happening in the dying process. He’s now in the end stretch, the hospice nurses referred to it as a transition to the final stage of his disease progression with COPD, barely moving any air, stopped eating, barely drinking and I felt like writing this.
With all these ups and downs, it’s often felt like being on a “death watch” each time he declined. He’s sleeping almost constantly now. The hospice nurses are keeping careful watch, guiding me on how to care for him and keep him comfortable. They visit daily now to check on my husband and guide me through this. I could not have made it through the past year, of this level of caregiving, without their support. These hospice nurses are truly angels.
People keep asking me, “Are you okay?” Yes, I’m “okay,” whatever that means. My husband and I have been married 40 years. He has fought harder to keep going than I ever imagined anyone would fight. There’s a whole lot of pain, but after watching him lose control of his body and the memory loss, where from one minute to the next, he usually can’t remember what he wanted to say, there’s also a feeling of hoping he finds peace when his suffering is done.
Oddly enough my husband never went on any social media and has no idea what a blog even is and he’s never read a single post, even though he’s inspired many of my posts. By the time I started blogging he was already suffering from serious memory problems.
Unlike many people monetizing or taking donations to support their blogs, I pay for my WordPress account. I never want to make a cent off of anything I write on this blog and only hope to continue having this small space online to express my opinions.
I’ll be back to blogging about politics, culture war issues and yes, likely the corrupt spin information war too, after my husband’s final journey is done.
Thanks for taking the time to read this personal blog post.
I will be back.
Since the election in November, I’ve given a lot of thought to how I spend my online time and pondered how much time I really want to devote to following our corrupt partisan spin information war blazing across American news media every single day. Each side’s spin game is predictable, boring and phony, staged agitation propaganda. Spin war is really just corrupt, ruthless agitation propaganda waged against the American people. It’s all about inciting Americans to anger and rage at other Americans. I haven’t written much, because I’ve given a lot of thought to writing about other topics and leaving the politics to the occasional blog post. Thanks to everyone who has taken time to read my blog, but this year has left me feeling it’s time to try a new path – less politics and more about things that really matter to me.
I don’t want to write about corrupt Trump, corrupt Dems, the corrupt media or their destructive scorched earth spin information war anymore.
It’s become almost cliché to talk about 2020 as the worst year in our lives, but it’s December and none of the “worst case” scenarios that worried me happened. That’s not to diminish the 305,000+ Americans who have died of COVID-19 complications, the millions of Americans who lost their jobs and/or businesses or the alarming ways in which sacrosanct constitutional rights have been trampled by overzealous local and state officials, all in the name of “public health” or the personal challenges that did occur in my own life. All those dreadful things happened, but so far our governmental and economic systems have not completely collapsed and most Americans, including me, continue to quietly go about our everyday lives.
The most disturbing aspect of 2020 was the pile-on aspect of experiencing a pandemic, a government-induced economic catastrophe (yes, the government closures of businesses has been a real catastrophe), and major civil unrest (much of it orchestrated with leftist political groups, Dem politicians and media incitement), replete with widespread rioting and looting. Even the pandemic, appears to have been caused due to deliberate decisions by the Chinese government not to warn other countries about COVID-19 spreading in China. Of course, many people would prefer to attribute all of 2020’s dire events on mystical, malignant factors, but the truth is terrible human decisions and the repercussions of awful decisions were the root causes of these large scale disastrous events in 2020.
I’m not following the minute-by-minute spin war on Twitter anymore, because there are too many other real life things that require my time and effort and I feel better away from following the Twitter drama so much. It’s pretty predictable that the mainstream media will continue to pretend they are unbiased, professionals, when in reality they are mostly Dem spin hacks, who deliberately squashed the Hunter Biden laptop story in October – to help Joe Biden. Biden will be inaugurated in January is a safe bet.
Trump won’t go away quietly. He will continue lashing out at people, whom he targets as “disloyal,” so if he fires Bill Barr soon, that should come as no surprise, but none of Trump’s petty revenge tantrums will change a thing, except assure his own administration stays in total disarray until Biden is sworn in. And no, I don’t believe the election was “stolen” from Trump – he lost. His legal team has offered no hard evidence of any of their “stolen election” conspiracy theories and Trump repeating and retweeting any crazy conspiracy theory he hears, should clue his followers in that Trump’s not concerned about facts, only inciting his followers.
No matter how much most Americans try to avoid the partisan political chaos, it’s going to further intrude on our lives and unravel our institutions and our civic spirit. The best thing every American can do is work to become more self-reliant and become better able to adapt to rapidly changing situations. I plan to write more about other topics in the coming months, because there’s not a thing I can do to change the entrenched scorched earth spin war raging across American news media.
Finding ways to unite people or at least find some common ground appeals to me more than banging away on my keyboard giving daily reports from the Twitter spin war trenches or expressing outrage about the latest American political spin drama.
I just wanted to post a short blog update. My husband of 39 years has been very ill for many years and after a hospitalization this week, he has come home on hospice care. When I have my thoughts together and time to focus on politics and other topics again, rest assured, “I’ll be back.”
Thanks for taking the time to read my blog.
I haven’t had the time or energy to put together a blog post lately, although I have been commenting about the Dem’s latest SPIN mass media crap show on Twitter some. Hopefully soon I’ll find time to get a blog post up.
A week or so ago I came across a Rand study, that I’ve begun reading and plan to finish when I have time. It’s called Truth Decay and sure feels like a timely topic: https://www.rand.org/research/projects/truth-decay.html
After writing my previous blog post, I began thinking about writing more about military strategy and tactics juxtaposed to an information battlefield, which is how SPIN information warfare is being waged in America. I want to expand on a few points pertaining to Trump’s guerilla warfare tactics in how he wages his information warfare, but unfortunately I’ve got some errands to run, so that post will be up tonight or tomorrow morning hopefully.
Here’s a quick blog update. My husband has been in the hospital since May 6th, so I’ve been too tired to write and not following politics closely enough to become engaged enough to write about anything. Sometime this week, my husband is supposed to move to a rehab facility for intensive physical therapy for a week or two and then at some point after that he will need the shunt in his brain replaced. I’ve been spending most of my days in Savannah at the hospital with him.
Once things settle down here, hopefully I’ll get back to writing.
Just a short blog note here to let you know my blogging will continue to be sporadic, due to some family health issues. I’ll try to get some blog posts written soon, but presently most of my time and energy is involved in trying to keep up with my housework and caring for my husband, whose mobility is very limited right now. He’s got to have more tests done & possibly replacement of the shunt that’s already in his head, but for the moment most of the time he can’t walk more than a few steps with his walker. So, we’re getting a routine established moving him around the house in the wheelchair, dressing, etc.
Fire crackers! Don’t know how I could live in GA over 20 years and never have tried fire crackers. My son brought some home at Christmas, which his friend made, so I looked on Pinterest for a recipe. Super simple really, but I will be changing to canola oil, instead of the olive oil next time and I will cut the red pepper flakes down to about a third or less than the recipe calls for. These are way too hot for me to handle. Here’s the recipe I followed.
Happy New Year!
The end of one year and beginning of another always involves being bombarded with a media glut of retrospection on the year that was. It also leaves us buried under piles of advice on making New Year’s resolutions, keeping them and all sorts of advice on how to transform our lives.
Last year at this time I decided that I wanted to take my blog in a direction away from politics, hopefully moving toward topics that were more meaningful to me (and hopefully to some who read my blog). America’s “greatest” reality TV show eclipsed my good intentions and I found myself, more often than not, writing about America’s reality TV presidency and our endless mass media information war, that still burns hot.
In my own daily life none of that political drama has affected me in any noticeable ways. In fact, few political events, except for very dramatic ones, things like war or the complete collapse of our government, would really create mass chaos in American daily life, I suspect. We are blessed to live in a stable republic, with a private economy that chugs along, through good times and bad. Most Americans, even those living in the lower-income brackets, live with more material goods than even the wealthiest Americans had when our country was founded.
This year, I intend to stick to my New Year’s blog resolution and move away from the domestic political sideshow more often.
Wishing all a very Happy New Year!
Happy New Year!
At the end of 2015, I wrote about moving my blog in another direction:
“Instead of endless political and foreign policy commentary (402 posts in 2015), I’m going to attempt to move my blog in another direction. Anyone can be an armchair critic about all that is wrong in American politics and culture, but let’s face the truth, it’s not the politicians’ fault for the state of our culture, our communities or the problems in our own lives. Despite the hype about the 2016 election, neither political party can fix America. Only committed citizens can do that.
Assuredly, failed social programs do deserve criticism, but let’s enter the new year facing the truth. Rebuilding the American team starts at the individual level, in fact, it starts with each of us. So, with this wide open internet why can’t we start working to share ideas, resources, and most of all inspirations geared toward that mission: rebuilding the American team.”
With a US presidential election in 2016 and so much else happening in the world, I didn’t stick to that goal of writing about inspirations to rebuild the American team as much as I wanted. Like most of America, I got caught up in the Witch of Chappaqua vs. Drumpzilla endless battles, but with that national embarrassment of two vile candidates running down-in-the-mud scorched earth campaigns over, it’s time to take a deep breath and refocus on that goal.
And after last year’s Reality TV national embarrassment, it’s time for all Americans to recommit to rebuilding the American team;-)
Wishing everyone a safe, happy, blessed New Year!